My Devine Success

Screaming, shouting
God what now?
Flailing arms
Another damn row

Voices raise high
What is it this time?
The washing's not done
You act like it's a crime

The yelling gets worse
The tears they rise
I run to my room
Hide my stifled cries

I hear you downstairs
Still going on
Would it be a relief?
If I were gone

I reach for my friend
The old trusty knife
There's comfort in you
An elexir of life

Dig it in deep
Slash up and down
Torture my arm
In the blood I shall drown

An outlet of emotion
Let the anger drain
Release all the sorrow
Frustration and pain

All the feeling
The hurt it is gone
Along with despair
Of rage their is none

Devoid of emotion
Sleep it awaits
Peaceful and calm
The fury deflates

Awake in the moring
Memories gone, lost
All but the blood
Like crimson dawn frost

Wash it away
Leave nothing but scars
Forever in my arm
Like the bright shining stars

Trot off to school
Safe and content
Feeling floods back
The anger all spent

Happy as Larry
They'll never know
Wrists covered up
Won't let the shame show

It's like an addiction
Weed or cocaine
It clears out your mind
Left feeling mundane

Only one option
Turn to the knife
This single choice
To lead a normal life

They'll never know
They'll never guess
The secret to happiness
My devine success